昨天，如往常般我去学院上课。早上的Lab只有8个人来做experiment(早知道我也不要去)，因为太少人所以全部人都一起做。
接下来上Lecturer Class，我们整个C Group差不多都有来上课(为了要考试Tips)。但是万万没想到老师居然要我们做出一个决定。由于我们 Group C 有太多人，而 Group A 又太少人，所以他要我们分派3个人去A组。这种事自然没有人会自愿要求转去A组。其实我们虽然是第一个学期，但是毕竟都已经同组了差不多3个月了。大家上个星期还一起去打羽球，上小云顶和大云顶。
由于没人要去，老师就要我们做一个很绝的东西，大家各自把一个名字写在一张纸上。最多名的哪3个自然就要离开C组了。
我心里在挣扎，我知道不管是什么结果，都不是我们要的结果。我交了一张空纸。
结果出来是出乎意料的，Course rep 居然是得最多票的那个。我才知道原来有一部分的人并不喜欢他。其他的人选包括了我的一个朋友他是间接得罪了班上的女生所以被选中。
表面上和谐的C组，原来还有那么多不和谐的一面。虽然这样的投票我很不喜欢，但是结果是C组让我对“人心”开了眼界。
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
心窗
前几天在报章上读到一篇文章关于窗口。著作说到，原来个个国家的窗口个有不同之出。有的比较大，有的形状奇特，有的窗口则在你意向不到的地方。透过窗口我们能看见屋子里边的状况、设计、颜色甚至于主人的喜好。而我们的心中也有一扇窗。
有的人把自己的心窗开的很大，这些人绝大多数都会有很多的朋友。有的人会把自己的心窗关的紧紧的，有的是因为之前被人伤害过，从而变成了自我保护的行为。有的人则把心窗打开一点点，让你看见他想让你看的假象。
我的心窗是属于后者。也因为这样身边的朋友都对我不很了解。
刚刚拿了一顶我很喜欢的帽子，戴在头上走向家里那面大镜子。看了两眼，我看见了一张我不认识的脸孔。心里一寒，我把帽子拿下来，再看看镜子。这个是面具还是我？我不懂。
有的人把自己的心窗开的很大，这些人绝大多数都会有很多的朋友。有的人会把自己的心窗关的紧紧的，有的是因为之前被人伤害过，从而变成了自我保护的行为。有的人则把心窗打开一点点，让你看见他想让你看的假象。
我的心窗是属于后者。也因为这样身边的朋友都对我不很了解。
刚刚拿了一顶我很喜欢的帽子，戴在头上走向家里那面大镜子。看了两眼，我看见了一张我不认识的脸孔。心里一寒，我把帽子拿下来，再看看镜子。这个是面具还是我？我不懂。
矛盾
我一直都认为我自己比同年龄的朋友要成熟的多。我不曾有过叛逆期，到我上了学院才懂什么是叛逆。是家里的关系吗？应该不是。从小我就已经会想，会做决定。我看过妈妈辛酸的过去，哥哥不知所谓的叛逆，姐姐为未来的烦恼，和爸爸那改变不了的思想。妈妈的辛酸眼泪有谁看到？我和姐姐看到了。妈妈一连串的往事，让我下定决心以后都不能让我爱的人流一滴眼泪。这些过去和一些妈妈送我的书本，经常都能让我在短时间作出决定。
现在我不知道我自己想要什么。我不懂我应该向谁说。我不懂可以和谁分享。
第一次觉得自己那么没用。我曾对自己起誓不再对任何女生有超过朋友的关系，至少必须在我读完书以后才可以拥有。
是你让我的身体和思想发生矛盾。我想和你在一起，可是另一方面我又不想这个时候有女朋友。我不知道你是不是在等我，我也不懂我应该怎样做才是正确的。
我知道要维持一段感情需要很多时间，而我不想在我读书的时候用掉这些时间。另一边，我又想。。 我以后会不会后悔？我这样做真的对吗？我不懂。我真的不懂我自己要什么。
要是有时光机哪该多好，我希望去窥探一下我的未来。哪怕只是一眼，已经很足够了。
我好累了，想的好累。这个礼拜还有一堆考试等着我。。我好累。。
现在我不知道我自己想要什么。我不懂我应该向谁说。我不懂可以和谁分享。
第一次觉得自己那么没用。我曾对自己起誓不再对任何女生有超过朋友的关系，至少必须在我读完书以后才可以拥有。
是你让我的身体和思想发生矛盾。我想和你在一起，可是另一方面我又不想这个时候有女朋友。我不知道你是不是在等我，我也不懂我应该怎样做才是正确的。
我知道要维持一段感情需要很多时间，而我不想在我读书的时候用掉这些时间。另一边，我又想。。 我以后会不会后悔？我这样做真的对吗？我不懂。我真的不懂我自己要什么。
要是有时光机哪该多好，我希望去窥探一下我的未来。哪怕只是一眼，已经很足够了。
我好累了，想的好累。这个礼拜还有一堆考试等着我。。我好累。。
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Day before CNY
On January 25th, we x3 plan to go to Klang for it famous BahKutTeh. All of us gather at my house and have some chit-chat and sure we gambling.
At about 1.24am we head for our destination. On the way to Klang, I am wondering if it is really taste good. What i didn't realize is a disaster i awaiting us.
It takes about 40minute+ and we finally reach the restaurant, thanks god they got open.
We bump into the restaurant and order their famous bahkutteh.
My comment on the bahkutteh after i eat is - nothing so special about it. But that is okay. We finish eating at about 3.30am.
Okay here comes the disaster. We go back with 3 cars, the 3 drivers are - Lun (Wira), Ching (Kelisa), TJ (SaGa). We got 14 peoples, so we separate into 4-5-5. Lun and TJ's cars are loaded with 5, and ching Kelisa with 4. Me, JQ, Z.haw, and H.bin in TJ's car.
So we start our journey toward the disaster that awaiting us.
Lun's car with the lead, follow by ching and last is TJ. It's still ok before we get into the highway.
When TJ car get on the highway, he decided to drive faster rahter than 90-100km/h. And so TJ car is ahead of them (lun/ching) alot in a blink of eyes.
At the particular moment, at about 150m ahead a car drive to the fast lane (TJ current lane) from middle lane with a speed about 110km/h.
I saw it behind TJ. And i said "Stop lo, you are about to hit him soon."
He didn't response to me and continue pressing the pedal and not the brakes.
When we get to the tail of that car, TJ wanted to overtake him with middle lane (He at fast lane).
With a speed of approx. 130-135km/h he turn his steering to the left. The car goes unstable, and he tried to pull it back to right side. At the mean time we are "drifting".
We hit the headlight of the front car with our front light also (we are drifting in middle lane currenty)
That car amazingly become vertical (i was stunned) and crash toward my direction ( i was behind driver seat).
Finally it crash to TJ mirror and the 2 cars stop dragging after a short while.
I quickly ask them to get out of the car as i afraid there was another car behind that will hit us directly. ( we at the middle of the highway)
I saw TJ hand is bleeding, other people are alright (thanks God).
Lun and ching's car saw us and quickly pull aside and come help us.
We send TJ to the hospital for some checkup. Seng and Bin call for help.
After all the hospital and workshop (car repair) stuff, we head home for rest.
It was a scary day for me.
At about 1.24am we head for our destination. On the way to Klang, I am wondering if it is really taste good. What i didn't realize is a disaster i awaiting us.
It takes about 40minute+ and we finally reach the restaurant, thanks god they got open.
We bump into the restaurant and order their famous bahkutteh.
My comment on the bahkutteh after i eat is - nothing so special about it. But that is okay. We finish eating at about 3.30am.
Okay here comes the disaster. We go back with 3 cars, the 3 drivers are - Lun (Wira), Ching (Kelisa), TJ (SaGa). We got 14 peoples, so we separate into 4-5-5. Lun and TJ's cars are loaded with 5, and ching Kelisa with 4. Me, JQ, Z.haw, and H.bin in TJ's car.
So we start our journey toward the disaster that awaiting us.
Lun's car with the lead, follow by ching and last is TJ. It's still ok before we get into the highway.
When TJ car get on the highway, he decided to drive faster rahter than 90-100km/h. And so TJ car is ahead of them (lun/ching) alot in a blink of eyes.
At the particular moment, at about 150m ahead a car drive to the fast lane (TJ current lane) from middle lane with a speed about 110km/h.
I saw it behind TJ. And i said "Stop lo, you are about to hit him soon."
He didn't response to me and continue pressing the pedal and not the brakes.
When we get to the tail of that car, TJ wanted to overtake him with middle lane (He at fast lane).
With a speed of approx. 130-135km/h he turn his steering to the left. The car goes unstable, and he tried to pull it back to right side. At the mean time we are "drifting".
We hit the headlight of the front car with our front light also (we are drifting in middle lane currenty)
That car amazingly become vertical (i was stunned) and crash toward my direction ( i was behind driver seat).
Finally it crash to TJ mirror and the 2 cars stop dragging after a short while.
I quickly ask them to get out of the car as i afraid there was another car behind that will hit us directly. ( we at the middle of the highway)
I saw TJ hand is bleeding, other people are alright (thanks God).
Lun and ching's car saw us and quickly pull aside and come help us.
We send TJ to the hospital for some checkup. Seng and Bin call for help.
After all the hospital and workshop (car repair) stuff, we head home for rest.
It was a scary day for me.
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